Quarantine and Going Within

I’ve been hearing a lot of my clients share about what this current landscape feels like for them. What I see in each of the shares is a peek into their entire life.

I’ve heard my breathwork teacher @davidelliott10 tell me as I’ve been training to teach his Healer 1 and now I get it (paraphrasing him )... observe everything because you’ll be able to see an entire person’s life in how they show up for one small aspect of the training.
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It allowed me to reflect on myself the other day. How was I relating to working, home schooling, parenting, running a household as a single parent. Wow. I could see my whole life in that one instant at 7:45 am on an average Monday morning.

I was feeling a little rushed, like I didn’t want to worry about the home schooling, and felt pressure to “do it right” and “do it good”, like I just wanted to throw that all out the window and follow my gut, like we needed less work and more play, and like I needed some space from it all to be alone with myself.

I realized in that moment that is pretty much how I feel most of the time when I’m out of alignment (doing what’s right or good versus what’s best for me and what’s loving) and wanting to get back into alignment.

So I decided to follow that desire. I channeled the “fuck it” into a loving energy. Other than my client calls that I chose to stay committed to, I was able to let go of everything else. No pressure. No judgment. Just choosing what felt intuitive and loving. And you know what, I felt so peaceful and aligned again.

I know all of this feels so different and strange for you, you’re finding a new groove, and at times feeling overwhelm, fear, anger, sadness, as well as aliveness, joy and love. I understand. I do.

What I learned though was to pause and notice how I was relating to it all, and what I deeply desired. Have the courage to follow that...it’s your heart and spirit speaking to you.